Keeping hitting a brick wall

Seems like i can never find the perfect guy for me. One day he's calling me baby the next he's making it crystal clear he doesn't want commitment and says it's only a matter of time till he's gonna bring over a new girl. How can it turn from being a perfect life, the suns shining and i'm just on top of the world, to being discarded and this is just a temporary point in my life. Can't go anywhere else cuz god knows, nobody can find out about my webcam, and after getting an awesome check just showing off some skin and chatting in my chat room, i can't go back to handing menus and wearing some tacky uniform or flip burgers and go back to struggling. So basically i'm trapped in a place where i can't exactly go find mr.wonderful while still living with him, but i'm suppose to wait till he tells me to move to the other bedroom. It's perfectly okay for him to replace me, but it'd just be awkward and wrong for me to start seeing someone.
What is so wrong with me that duche bag after duche bag, come flocking at me. WHAT AM I DOING WRONG????? I knew how he was but i thought....i don't know what i thought. It doesn't even matter anymore. He hardly talks to me, he's always finding stuff to do away from me, having phone conversations away from me....he's planning something and i'm not in the loop.
I guess i'm stuck just doing my cam, and save up money in case shit goes down and gets too bad. I'm not staying in the next room over listening to them having sex.... This is just a shitty situation. I have feelings for him so it's still hard for me to in his face find someone else... I guess i'll save up for my own apartment instead of a car....Wasn't picturing this situation when i was riding a bus thousands of miles away from my friends and family. The webcam job is the only thing that's good in my life right now

Updates and a little about my day :)

I'm creating a new website so my special followers can pay a low monthly membership to see personal pictures, and watch exclusive videos of me.

There will be a raffle tonight, so buy your tokens and be a part of the awesome raffle where you get awesome prizes. That's about it....woke up really early so i can get my website ready for my AWESOME fans to view.

Also, i got my AMAZING check from chaturbate, but it's paid to the order to TINY_TITTEE_COMMITTEE, not my actual name, so no bank is taking it. We need to pay the internet bill, and get ciggerettes today and i'm skrewed if i can't get my 20 dollar business certificate that proves i have my own business and that is my business name. GRRRRRR chaturbate!!! Anybody wanna donate 20 bucks to the nice pretty lady??? Been buying ciggs with pocket change!! This sucks, and then our adorable puppy almost got hit by a car, like 3 inches difference she would be a pancake on the road. Left the door open and she ran out to chase a squirrel and even though we live on a very quiet road WOULDN'T YOU KNOW, a car decided to drive past right at that moment, freaked me out like you wouldn't believe!

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